This week was tough for me.
I don’t have a color-coded homeschool schedule.
We have not perfected a routine for our days.
My patience ran short too often.
I was cranky and not always fun to be around.
My kids had too much screen time.
I was doing really well for really long, but now I can feel my wall crumbling just a little.
It is disconcerting to see our world turned upside down with all the changes happening around us. Things we couldn’t imagine happening just a few days ago are now a reality. Quarantined towns, schools and colleges closed, sports seasons postponed or even cancelled.
I could feel guilty.
I am out of town for the weekend for my annual girls’ trip with four of my best friends who are located around the country. I hopped on a plane to fly away, while my husband stays home with the kids. I will be gone for five days.
I could feel guilty that I am doing something for myself.
Sometimes you just gotta wear the tutu.
We often find ourselves on the outside looking in when it comes to our kids activities. We watch them play. We cheer them on. We capture the memories in photographs. But it isn’t always that we dive in with our children.
Maybe it’s because we are embarrassed or afraid to look silly in front of other adults. Maybe we are busy watching little siblings or multi-tasking a zillion different things. Maybe we just don’t get the opportunity.