I ran a 5k race this weekend. As I was getting ready to leave the house that morning, my husband smiled and said, “Good luck!”
“Oh, I’m not in it to win it,” I replied.
He laughed, flashed me a thumbs up, and jokingly said, “Great attitude!”
It did sound funny. But it’s true, I’m not in it to “win” it. Not even close.
No, I’m in it for the feeling of accomplishment I get when I meet a goal I have set for myself.
I’m in it to prove to myself that this 41-year-old body has got what it takes to carry me those 3.1 miles.
I’m in it to complete the course, slowly but surely, and to know that I did that by myself. For myself.
I’m in it to experience that joy that comes with crossing that finish line, even if it is only slightly faster than a long-legged person’s speed walking pace.
No, winning was never on my radar, and because of that the pressure was off and I could just enjoy the process.
So, no, I’m definitely not in it to “win” it.
I’d like to say I’m in it to “earn” it.
And can’t this way of thinking be applied to life, too, if you really think about it?
We are so often consumed with comparing ourselves with others. Wondering if we are doing the right thing, the best thing. Wondering if we are “winning”.
If we just took this notion off our radar, think of how freeing that would be.
So, no, I wasn’t in that race to win it, but I finished it.
I earned it.
And, just so you know, afterwards I proceeded to go directly to Panera to treat myself to a breakfast sandwich, because why not?
I totally earned that, too.