Find Your Thing, Mama

Went for a run this morning!
WAIT. Before you scroll by thinking this is going to be a humble brag post about how fit and sporty I am, please realize it is not that in any way.
It cannot be that because I am actually not those things at all. In fact, I am a terrible runner. My “running” pace is not much faster than some people’s walking pace. I have never been athletic. Like ever. Unless you count that one time I played freshmen field hockey in high school. But everyone made the team. And I got cut the following year. So, no, that doesn’t count.

I started running earlier this year for the first time ever in my life. I made a conscious decision that I wanted to be a runner. A “bucket list” item, if you will. Something I had never done before.
Maybe I chose running was because I was turning 40.
Maybe it was because I wanted to feel young and was beginning to experience a midlife crisis.
Maybe it was because I just wanted to know that I could do it.
Maybe it was because since leaving my career and becoming a stay-at-home mom I haven’t had many ways to describe myself other than being “mommy of two kids”, and was looking for something to call my own.
Regardless of why, the decision was made and I did it. I started running. Slowly but surely I worked my way up to doing a 5K race. And then another. And another. Terrible race times, by the way, but that’s not the point. The point is I did it.
I. Did. It.
Running is still hard for me after all these months. Today, after not having ran in a few weeks because life got in the way, I had an even more difficult time. But I did it. And I will keep doing it.
Running makes me feel good about myself. It is something I can do to help me remember Mia as a person and not just as “Mama Mia”. Something I accomplished on my own. Something I didn’t know I could do. And it feels great.
So, this post is not about me at all, but a message to all the mamas reading this.
It is a reminder that there is more to you than just being “mom”. A gentle urging to find something you want to do FOR YOU and go for it.
You will surprise yourself at just how much you are capable of. Trust me. ❤️

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